Incomplete...!!!!
I didn't know how a person can feel for the other person today . And it's coz of just one day. The day that change my life .All of sudden things changed for meh. I can’t believe that I didn't know that I changed and it happened with in a blink of an eye.
Once upon a time I was in love with a girl. I was in love with her so deep that when she left me I was all alone in this world. The world was so very empty for me. My mind would think of nothing but the world without her. Mind was total blank with only one thing in mind. Did it really happen am I in the real world or not? Later after days of the story if anything that approached to meh in a form of any kindness of closeness by anyone towards meh would be taken as an excuse that I wouln't take.Then I knew that I won’t be able to feel anyone’s love for me. I don’t know how it happened but it happened and it was a real shock for me.I began to be lonely and started to get disconnected frm ppl around meh. The story ended long time ago. And today I am trying to narrate how I felt during those couple of weeks when I smiles with no glimpse of happiness in the expression that I showed.I never though that I would ever be in those face. Remembering those times I can say one thing for certain that I couldn't stop myself frm thinking over and over again if it really happened or not???
It was quite unconvincing to me that I loved her so much and the passionate love that we had in between ourself just broke apart. With poor me myself being known that she went away from my life. I were not going to have her see me anymore in my life from then. It might have been all coz I was the one who was wrong and she was the one who was right. But still I think I am right and she was wrong but……. still can’t I can't believe it till today . WHY ? WHY ? WHY ???
My eyes were wet when it sees her from nowhere coming to see me. I could hear her voices that keeps on buzzing in my ears that says t “I LOVE YOU” even though she was gone. She went away leaving meh along far away that I won't be able to see her any further in my life. Since she left I was able to be creative … ha ha !!!! and I learned to write something out of nothing as times were just spent thinking . One thing that really good happened was I started to be even more creative that I was. It was one of the amazing thing that happened after the end of the love story. I have writeen alot of poems, songs, journals and stories too.... they are just incomplete in itself and couple of small piece of writing like this that were never so good to be publish.I felt like I was being creative as I used to like what I wrote but the sad part is that I never knew how to end it after starting it.
I don’t know why she left away in silence. I didn’t even get one word “goodbye” before she left me. Nobody wants to say "goobye". A goodbye before leaving meh alone would have been fair enough for me. I would have a reason for forgetting her. I couldn't forget her coz I thought there was still hope of getting together somwhere . I loved her so dearly and I thought that she did the same with me. I didn't know what went wrong .That made her run away so far away from meh. I wasn't even able to see her on the horizon where my eyes could possibly see with it's power. I didn't know where would I be able to find her again .I still had the faith and hope somewhere deep in my heart of getting her back to my life . Ane see the colours of the real life and be happy again with cheerful smiles. I had promised her that I would never make her down and upset.Those promises were broken at times .Things happened at times unnoticed that just made me make mistake. It just happened and I know then(at those times) she forgave me for that. I couldn't forget those good sweet days, me and my girl were together .And those days memories always recalled me of the girl who were always so sweet who would make my every bad day into good. She was the most beautiful creature in this world for me. She was so real and so down to earth.I had heard many times till then that ppl change and it doesn't take a second for ppl to change and go a different direction.She had the sweet husky voice. She was gorgeous and used to always smile. I never had any bad days in my life when she was in my life. Every day and nights were so very perfect as if she just made those days and nights for me just for me. But then she was gone and nothing remained the same. Absolutely nothing .Things changed a lot and I also got changed. I changed alot but I wouldn't be accepting the fact that I changed. I could accept everything couldn’t accept that I was left me unanswered silence in the darkness. The other thing which was quite surprising to me is that I stopped to feel for other coz it’s all useless and this world is not fair......... and My Love was just incomplete in itself as I was the only one left in this world.....!!!
EEY raamaaa maile ke lekhey ni launa..... merii basaii.... LU maan paroo pareyna ... yesoo kehi lekhuu lekhuu vayera kehi lekhii diyeko ... JAii NEPz...
HAPiie AAPieee TiHar...
- ROCKEND aka ROcks or ROCKy...!!!
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