From the early 2oth I was curious to make girlfriend. I really wanted to make girlfriend. But I wanted to take it just for fun. I
never had serious intension, Just wanted to make girlfriend for have fun.But till 23 I didn't have any girlfriend, though I was
handsome. I was also a kind of guy who didn't want to betray and spoil someones life just for fun purpose or for selfishness. At the
age of 24, I came to usa. I started to chat with the girl the girl whom I came to know indirectly through one of my counsin brother.
We started chatting everyday.I started liking chatting with her. We shared our picture to each other. She was not 1oo% of my type. But
eventhough we kept on going. At the same time, my dream girl who was in Nepal came to contact after long time. I tried to know her
intension regarding me but I couldn't find more than friend that's why I started getting close to my new friend. She came to usa
before than me, so she knew more than me so she used to suggest me do this do that, I kind of liked that. We kept on going for more
than 2 months. She started sending me gifts to me. She used to send me some Indians foods too I was missing nepalese food.
Not only me she also got addicted towards chatting with me. We started chatting hours and hours everynight, sometimes whole
night. Whenever we couldn't get in touch, she would get more worried. These things made me sure that she loves me. And I was also
looking for someone who would take care of me because I was really spoiled son. So one day I decided to propose her and I propossed
her. Guess what was the answer, Yes or NO. You guessed yes, Yes she said yes. I was very happy.But
onething..............................
You know what she had past love life as well. But she told me. She said it was him who loved me so much that I was compelled to accept
her proposal because I didn't want to spoil others life because of me. She told me later that the guy was kind of abnormal she was
drug addicted and oneday family came to know about their affair and they simply didn't want to go their relation further. That's why
she also came to USA. And now we are in relation. I just thought of forgetting her past because it was from the boys side. So i
thought not to worry.
And I was happy finally being into love relation with a girl. Our days and night used to go talking in the phone for hours
and hours. We used to talk in the phone because she was in different state and I was in differnt state. Though we were in love( till
then actually, I didnt' had real idea of love, though I was taking it as love). We never had thought in the beginning that we will be
together soon , we had thought of continuing our loving eventhough we were in different state. But oneday I came to conclusion that I
would go to her state bcoz the college I was studying was expensive and if I have to change the college then why not to her state. I
made up my mind to go to her state. And I told her about this, she got excited listening this. Then after we started counting the days
to get together. We were so excited to see each other. We were just seeing through picture and sometimes in webcam.
Finally, the day came. I reached in her state. She was there to pick me up. Both of us were so happy to see each other. We wanted
to hug each other so tightly but couldn't because she came to airport with one of her relative cousin. So we couldn't infront oh him.
We reached at her apartment, we started talking . We were so happy to see each other direcltly. Just couldn't explain. In the next
day, she took me to her know family and introduce with each and everyone she had known till then. What I come to know after meeting
her directly, is that she was really kind and sweet hearted girl she was liked by everyone. I have to say she was kind of popular in
that place being kind, smart. And I was happy to get her as my girl friend. Days went on happily.
But, after sometime we started finding differences. But eventhough we tried to go along. And we were going. One day I thought
of checking her emails, and I could because we knew the password of eachother. And I saw her email, I was shocked seeing her emails.
There were still dozens of emails from her past love life. Single email was enough to tear me down. And I melted down. I hadn't
thought that it was both side love. I just had thought it was the boy who was in love with her. But from the email I found that both
of them were in love. But because of their family problem they couldn't get together.. I cried so much that I enen told her that I
read her email. She cried even and tried to make me calm.
Days when on with someone kind of sourness in my heart. As I had said that we had lot of differences from eating habit, to
spening money, wearing clothes, talking and so on and on. Though we kept on going. One day we decided to let our parents know about
our relationship. So in the beginnging she let her father know . Her father was happy to know this but he got worried as we were from
intercast. He got worried thinking that my parents might not accept that. I also let my parents know through my younger brother who is
2 yrs younger than me. They also liked our relationship. They didn't care about we being intercast. But later I don't know may be my
parents started to think about what the society will think because my girlfriend was from lowercast(though I never cared about this
cast system). My sister also said me that if you could you leave her. Wow now I was kind of worried what to know. I started being
little mean towards her. Might be it hurt her. Her family and my family also started talking each other. They come to know that my
family were showing oddness in our relationship. At the same time...........................
New proprosal came to my girlfriend. From whom?????????? From the guy, my girl friend used to know him ver welly. They were
good friends. They knew each other before my girlfriend know me. He was also from the same state. They used to hang around in the
holidays. What I came to know from my friend that " He had told her that I would purpose her if I hadn't girlfriend" What it hurt her
very much. Now the situation is getting little confuse. And I came into her life exactly in this time. When her friend from the same
state had hurt her saying that I would have proposed her if I hadn't girlfriend. This is the time I got close to her.
Now lets continue the current situation, as the proposal came. My girl friend parents got confuse what to do. My girl friend
had already told her parents that she loves me very much. But they were also aware that my parents were kind of against the relation.
They used to ask their what you think about that other guy whom they also they very well.He was from rich family and also well
educated and good looking as well.If I have to say he was better than me.
My girl friend started to tell me that her parents is forcing me to go with other guys becuase we know him parents very well
and he also loves you very much. But she used to say no to her parents infront of me whenever they used to call her. She used to say
She loves me. But I can feel the pressure to her to choose the other guy. They really liked the other guy very much than me. This
discussion longer than it was supposed to be. Her parents used to call her almost daily. Asking her what's going on? As I had already
mentioned that we had lot of differences. The topic of other guy was going more than a month which I had thought should be endend
within a day or couple of days. I was just wondering why the toping is going longer and longer. I kept getting mad at my girlfriend,
why is this topic stretching. why is it getting longer and longer as we both of us know we love each other other. So she told me that
I am gonna make a end of this topic. She told me that she's gonna meet that guy and tell him that it's impossible and she's gonna tell
him that she loves me very much much. So, I told her to go and make everything clear. They met and talked about this and told him that
it's impossible. The other guy got very sad.
After this I was happy but I couldn't see happiness in my girl friend face. I was wondering why is she so sad. I was just
curious why???????????????????????????????????????????????? So one day I checked her cell phone and tried to see the sms. I saw the
sms. I just felt like as if I was fallen from 100 floor roof. " I SAW THE SMS TO OTHER GUY SAYING I LOVE YOU TOO.". I went unconscious
for a while. At that time my girlfriend was sleeping. I wake her up. I asked her what is this? She was way nervous? She tried to
convince me saying listen to me I will clarify. I just couldn't stop , I started slapping her. I was totally knocked down seeing that.
I kept on slapping her. She was begging me to forgive but I couldn't stop. That night was my first nightmare. In that night I slept for like 2 hrs. In the early we went outside. And I told her from when are we going to separate , as we were living in same apartment. We just kept on begging for one chance. But I said noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. It's finish. All over. We both were crying. She was crying ...................................................................................................
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